I’m about to go into my second year of high school. It seems like I’m pretty grown up, but why do I still feel so young?

From my first year of high school, I have learned that you gain so many more responsibilities and people have much higher expectations of you. These include getting your driver’s license, excelling in school, getting your first job and preparing yourself for the future.

These are all things I can’t wait to do, but something makes me feel not ready. I was just about to get out of seventh grade when COVID hit. So basically, I had just  come out of elementary school, where my only responsibility was school and the only thing  I was worried about was that new toy I wanted after I saw it on TV.

I never knew time could go by so fast. Elementary school seemed like it was a couple months ago. And now I am already expected to get my driving permit.

Lockdown had made time into one huge blur. It feels odd knowing that I am going to be in charge of a vehicle, when right before the whole COVID blur I was just playing with toys and dolls.

Who knew I could go from controlling my Barbie car to controlling an actual car so quickly? Being hit so quickly with these high expectations is quite overwhelming.

To kids younger than I am, my advice is “Don’t try to grow up so fast.” I’m sure students in junior high and even elementary school can’t wait to drive and be in high school and have a bunch of friends. But don’t rush it.

Life can be tough nowadays. It’s hard making new friends in my generation. People are so quick to judge based on appearance. Many times, that’s what determines if they want to be friends or not. I have seen and encountered this

I’m only a sophomore and although I am still young. I’m graduating in three years. I already know that time is going to fly by. And by graduation it will be my time to fly and fly out the bird’s nest. You can’t be a chick forever.

I know I have to start thinking about my future and career. There are so many options out there in the world, and I can do any one of them.

I don’t necessarily have to only do one, but settling on at least one is the hard part for me. Personally, I want to stay close to home and go to a college where the weather is nice and so are the people.

I don’t want anything to stop me from pursuing my dreams though. When I was younger I wanted to be a vet, teacher, nail technician and astronaut all at once. That’s very difficult, but anything is possible.

Trying to decide what job I want to do is challenging and also feels demanding. I want to do something I am excited to do every day. I often hear my parents and guardians complaining about going to work and all the stress that comes with it. But they do it for us, so I want to find a good job for them.

As a 15-year-old student, my job is school. I am a proud “A “student, and as I grow older I’m looking forward to continuing with advanced classes and taking college courses.

 But I also love to spend time with my friends and family and have fun. Sometimes balancing the two can be difficult, but that’s okay. I have learned so much, and I still have so much to learn.

The Westside Express